{"id":243,"date":"2013-02-07T18:57:09","date_gmt":"2013-02-07T17:57:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/?p=243"},"modified":"2013-02-07T18:57:35","modified_gmt":"2013-02-07T17:57:35","slug":"happy-tears","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/2013\/02\/07\/happy-tears\/","title":{"rendered":"Happy tears"},"content":{"rendered":"

Hej!<\/p>\n

Idag p\u00e5 gymmet br\u00f6t jag ihop. Totalt, det var inte sm\u00e5 fina perfekt runda t\u00e5rar. Nej de var mer s\u00e5 att jag hulkade. En blandning av gl\u00e4dje t\u00e5rar och kanske lite r\u00e4dsla ocks\u00e5. Jag fick min mens idag. F\u00f6rsta g\u00e5ngen p\u00e5 11 m\u00e5nader. Idag, p\u00e5 gymmet. Lycka. M\u00e5nga kan t\u00e4nka att det verkar vara sk\u00f6nt att slippa mensen. B\u00e5de ja och nej. Att veta att man har f\u00f6rlorat den f\u00f6r att kroppen m\u00e5r d\u00e5ligt och veta att den knske aldrig kommer tillbaks om det g\u00e5r f\u00f6r l\u00e5ngt och inte kunna f\u00e5 barn. Det \u00e4r lite l\u00e4skigt.<\/p>\n

MEN idag fick jag den! Detta \u00e4r ett tecken p\u00e5 att jag blir b\u00e4ttre och att jag k\u00e4mpar. Min kropp m\u00e5r b\u00e4ttre, jag har g\u00e5tt upp \u00a0i vikt och min kropp har inte n\u00e4ringsbrist. Jag v\u00e4ger nu mellan 55-57 kilo beroende p\u00e5 dag och hur mycket jag har i magen + vatten vikt. Det \u00e4r tydligen s\u00e5 jag m\u00e5ste v\u00e4ga f\u00f6r att min kropp ska fungera. Inte mindre \u00e4n 55 aldrig igen. Aldrig.<\/p>\n

Till alla er med \u00e4tst\u00f6rningar, jag tror att det kan bli b\u00e4ttre. Vi kan om vi vill. K\u00e4mpa med mig. Bara f\u00f6r att vi g\u00e5r upp i vikt beh\u00f6ver vi inte g\u00e5 upp i endast fett. Vi bygger muskler. Det \u00e4r sexigt. \u00c4t mer, tr\u00e4na mer, lyft vikter. Jag g\u00f6r det, jag lyfter tungt och g\u00e5r upp i vikt. Man blir inte fet, siffran p\u00e5 v\u00e5gen stiger. Men tittar jag i spegeln och p\u00e5 bilder ser jag att att jag har en b\u00e4ttre kropp nu, jag \u00e4r thightare och jag kommer ha ett sex pck tills sommaren. G\u00f6r det h\u00e4r med mig, k\u00e4mpa med mig. Du och jag, tillsammans.\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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<\/em><\/strong>Hi!<\/p>\n

Today at the gym I broke down. Overall, it was not small fine perfectly round small tears. No, they were more so that I sobbed. A mixture of tears of happiness and maybe a little fear too. I got my period today. First time in 11 months. Today, at the gym. Happiness.
\nMany may think that it seems to be nice to not have your period. Yes and no. Knowing that you have lost it because of the way you are treating your body and to know that it maybe never come back if it goes too far and not being able to have children later in life. It’s a little scary.<\/p>\n

BUT today I got it back! This is a sign that I’m getting better and I really trying. My body is getting healthy again, \u00a0I have gained weight and my body does not have nutritional deficiencies. I now weigh between 55-57 kg, depending on the day and how much I have in my stomach + water weight. This is the weight my body needs to be healthy. I will never go below 55 kg again. Never again. Never.<\/p>\n

To all of you with eating disorders, I think that it will be better. We can if we want. Fight with me. Just because we gain weight, don’t mean that we will gain fat weight. We build muscles. It’s sexy. Eat more, exercise more, lift weights. I do that, I lift weights and I gain weight in muscles. I don’t get fat by eating more and exercise even though the scale tells me that, but if I look in the mirror and pictures I can see that I have a better body now, and I think that I will have a six pack until summer. Do this with me, fight with me. You and me, together. \u00a0<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Hej! Idag p\u00e5 gymmet br\u00f6t jag ihop. Totalt, det var inte sm\u00e5 fina perfekt runda t\u00e5rar. Nej de var mer s\u00e5 att jag hulkade. En blandning av gl\u00e4dje t\u00e5rar och kanske lite r\u00e4dsla ocks\u00e5. Jag fick min mens idag. F\u00f6rsta g\u00e5ngen p\u00e5 11 m\u00e5nader. Idag, p\u00e5 gymmet. Lycka. M\u00e5nga kan t\u00e4nka att det verkar vara … L\u00e4s mer<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4212,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[12],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-243","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-my-personal-life"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/243","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/4212"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=243"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/243\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=243"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=243"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=243"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}