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<\/p>\nHello Ellen! Must ask if it is okay, did \/ you an eating disorder? Because you have written that at your instagram. \u00a0How long ago was that You dont need to answer!<\/p>\n
Hi! Yes I have a eating disorder and I have suffered with it since I was in seventh grade (I go year one in high school now). I’ve suffered from anorexia nervosa and also ortorexia nervosa. Today anorexia is better and I do not starve myself. I stop about 2 months ago. My eating disorder has been on and of since I ws in seventh grade when I didnt et at all. But it went better and I got proffesional help. For about 1 year ago I started to use birth control pills and those pills made me gain about 10 kg in less than 2 months without chanching my eating and exercise habits. This made me very sad and I felt disgusting and I started counting calories again and increased exercise. And the hell started and I was stuck in my eating disorder. I lived on about 300 – 700 calories a day as a maximum while I exercised both before and after school and burned between 1000 to 2000 calories a day. I isolated myself more and more. First I strted to say no to going out with friends and party and I went to the gym instead, \u00a0then I started to sy no to dinners with my friends, and then I \u00a0stopped seeing friends after school and my whole life ws based on planning and calorie counting and exercise. I had no energy to do anything and I felt incredibly bad, and I was depressed and the hours I didnt spend at at the gym did I spend in my bed asleep to avoid the pain. The pain of not feeling beautiful, the pain of feeling that I wasnt enough. If I had ”to much” food I used laxatives, that made me feel better. I dropped kg after kg, and after 4 months I had gone down from 67 kg to 52 kg. My ribs stuck out the front of the chest and in my back and I didnt look nice and thin as I had planned, I was skinny and looked weak.
I didnt see any friends for my whole smmer holiday (2 months) I simply had isolated myself completely. The only ones I have left is my boyfriend and my family which are the only ones who understands me and my friends got tired of the way I lived my life and left me. In september I got tired of the way I was living my life and I started eating more and I did cut down the hours I spent on exercising. And today, I see myself as a \u00a0healthy person an Ana has left my body and my mind. She still scream in my hed sometimes but I try to push her awy. She is not welcome anymore. I dont starve, i eat a healthy amount of calories (around 1500-2300 calories a day) and I have gained back my weigh and I look healthy.
At the moment its only the ortorexia that Im struggelling with but Im getting better and better. Most people dont know about ortorexia so I write a short summary of the disorder that i found at wikipedia: \u00a0<\/p>\n
Orthorexia nervosa\u00a0(also known as\u00a0orthorexia) is not mentioned in the\u00a0DSM, but was first used by Steven Bratman to characterize people who develop an obsession with avoiding foods perceived to be\u00a0unhealthy.\u00a0Orthorexia nervosa is believed to be a\u00a0mental disorder.\u00a0Bratman claims that in rare cases, this focus may turn into a fixation so extreme that it can lead to severe\u00a0malnutrition\u00a0or even death.\u00a0Even in less severe cases, the attempt to follow a diet that cannot provide adequate nourishment is said to lower self-esteem as the orthorexics blame themselves rather than their diets for their constant hunger and the resulting cravings for forbidden foods.<\/p>\n
Symptoms of\u00a0orthorexia nervosa\u00a0may include obsession with\u00a0healthy eating\u00a0and\u00a0emaciation, among other things. Orthorexic subjects typically have specific feelings towards different types of food. The obsession for healthy foods could come from a number of sources such as family habits, society trends, economic problems, recent illness, or even just hearing something negative about a food type or group, which then leads them to ultimately eliminate the food or foods from their diet.\u00a0According to the abstract of a 2004 study quoted on\u00a0PubMed, a service of the\u00a0National Institutes of Health, ”The analysis of the physiological characteristics, the social-cultural and the psychological behaviour that characterises subjects suffering from ON shows a higher prevalence in men and in those with a lower level of education”<\/p>\n
I get profisionell help and I visit the doctor regularly to make sure that I’m fine and healthy. I want to end this long post by saying to all the people who arent happy with themself that you are all beautiful as you are! You dont need to change your way of life (unless you are suffering of a extreme overweigt and need to lose weight to be healthy). If you recognize yourself in my description, get help as soon as you can. You dont want to be like me, I dont want ANYBODY to feel the pain that I have gone through. Everybody belives that being thin will make them happy (even I did that) but today I can honestly say that losing weight wont make you happy. I dont think that you can be totally satisfied with your look and the word ”perfection” dosnt exist. What is the defenition of perfect? Yhe defenition of perfection dont exist in the human world. There is always something that you arnt happy with, a thigh gap dosnt make anyone happy. I promise you! Try to focus on what you like about yourself and you will for sure feel more happy about yourself. I’ve having problems with both my kidneys, and I dont get my period, which can lead to sterile. So please, believe in yourself and be strong. No one is worth the pain that an eating disorder is. I lost almost all my friends from elementary school and now in high school lots of people have talked behind my back cause Im not s \u00a0odrinary 16 yer old girl. But I have friends again and Im almost free from my eating disorders.
Focus on being healthy and be thankful if you are. You are beautiful as you are. And never let someone make you think otherwise.<\/p>\n
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\nHej Ellen! M\u00e5ste fr\u00e5ga om det \u00e4r okej, hade\/ du en \u00e4ta st\u00f6rning? F\u00f6r du har skrivit det p\u00e5 din instgram. Hur l\u00e4nge sen var det? Du beh\u00f6ver inte svara!
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\nHej! Ja jag har en \u00e4ts\u00f6rning och har haft det sen jag gick i sjuan (Jag g\u00e5r ettan p\u00e5 gymnasiet nu). Jag har lidit av Anorexia nervosa och \u00e4ven ortorexia nervosa. Idag \u00e4r anorexian b\u00e4ttre och jag sv\u00e4lter inte mig sj\u00e4lv. Jag slutde med det f\u00f6r ca 2 m\u00e5nader sedan. \u00c4tst\u00f6rningen kom fr\u00e5n coh till sen jag gick i sjuan d\u00e5 jag inte \u00e5t \u00f6verhuvudtaget och var v\u00e4ldigt smal. N\u00e4r jag sedan f\u00f6r lite mer \u00e4n ett \u00e5r sedan b\u00f6rjade \u00e4ta p piller s\u00e5 fick jag fel sort och gick upp n\u00e4rmare 10 kg p\u00e5 mindre \u00e4n tv\u00e5 m\u00e5nader trots att jag tr\u00e4nade och \u00e5t exakt likadant som jag gjort hela tiden. Detta gjorde tt jag blev v\u00e4ldigt ledsen och jag m\u00e5dde j\u00e4tte d\u00e5ligt och jag b\u00f6rjade r\u00e4kna kalorier igen och \u00f6kade tr\u00e4ningen. Det var d\u00e5 helvettet b\u00f6rjade igen och jag var fast i min \u00e4tst\u00f6rning. Jag levde p\u00e5 ca 300 – 700 kalorier om dagen som max samtidigt som jag tr\u00e4nade b\u00e5de innan och efter skolan och br\u00e4nde mellan 1000-2000 kalorier om dagen. Jag isolerade mig mer och mer och tillslut, det b\u00f6rjade med att jag slutade f\u00f6lja med tjejerna ut och festa och valde att tr\u00e4na ist\u00e4llet, sen slutade jag f\u00f6lja med p\u00e5 tjej middagarna, och jg slutade tr\u00e4ffa kompisar efter skolan och mitt liv gick i stort s\u00e4tt ut p\u00e5 att planera och r\u00e4kna kalorier och tr\u00e4na \u00f6verdrivet mycket. Jag hade tillslut ingen ork till att g\u00f6ra n\u00e5gonting och jag m\u00e5dde otroligt d\u00e5ligt och var deprimerad och de timmar som jag inte spenderade p\u00e5 gymmet sov jag f\u00f6r att slippa sm\u00e4rtan. Om jag hade \u00e4tit ”f\u00f6r mycket” s\u00e5 anv\u00e4nde jag mig av laxermedel f\u00f6r att k\u00e4nna mig b\u00e4ttre. Jag tappade kilo efter kilo och efter 4 m\u00e5nader hade jag g\u00e5tt ner fr\u00e5n 67 kg till 52 kg. Mina revben stack ut b\u00e5de fram p\u00e5 br\u00f6stet och i ryggen och jag s\u00e5g inte fin och smal ut som jag hade planerat, jag var mager och s\u00e5g svag ut. Sliten.\u00a0
\nHela sommarlovet gick ut p\u00e5 att tr\u00e4na. Det h\u00e4r sommrlovet var f\u00f6rsta g\u00e5ngen jag inte tr\u00e4ffade kompisar \u00f6verhuvudtaget. Jag hade helt enkelt isolerat mig helt. De jag har kvar \u00e4r min pojkv\u00e4n plus familj vilka \u00e4r de enda som f\u00f6rst\u00e5r d\u00e5 mina v\u00e4nner tr\u00f6ttnade p\u00e5 mitt s\u00e4tt att leva. I september tr\u00f6ttnade jag p\u00e5 mitt s\u00e4tt att leva och jag b\u00f6rjade \u00e4ta mer och drog ner p\u00e5 tr\u00e4ningen rej\u00e4lt. Och idag s\u00e5 tycker jag sj\u00e4lv att jag \u00e4r frisk fr\u00e5n min anorexia och jag sv\u00e4lter inte mig sj\u00e4lv l\u00e4ngre och jag har g\u00e5tt upp i vikt och ser h\u00e4lsosam ut.\u00a0
\nNu \u00e4r det endast ortorexin som jag k\u00e4mpar f\u00f6r att bli frisk ifr\u00e5n. Det \u00e4r inte m\u00e5nga som vet vad det \u00e4r s\u00e5 jag t\u00e4nkte skriva en kort sammanfttning som jag hittade p\u00e5 wiki. :
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\n”Ortorexi\u00a0betecknar en fixering vid en ”h\u00e4lsosam” livsstil, pr\u00e4glad av tex \u00f6verdriven tr\u00e4ning och nyttigt \u00e4tande. Ortorexi har likheter med och \u00f6verlappar till viss del med\u00a0\u00e4tst\u00f6rningarna, framf\u00f6r allt\u00a0Anorexia nervosa, men \u00e4r mera att betrakta som ett \u00f6verdrivet uttryck f\u00f6r r\u00e5dande samh\u00e4lleliga trender och v\u00e4rderingar. En ortorektikers m\u00e5l \u00e4r att vara den ultimata h\u00e4lsosamma m\u00e4nniskan.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Den ortorektiska individen k\u00e4nner sig misslyckad och otillfredst\u00e4lld om han\/hon inte har uppfyllt sina str\u00e4nga och oftast h\u00f6gst orealistiska m\u00e5l avseende tr\u00e4ning och kosth\u00e5llning. Medvetenheten om f\u00f6dans n\u00e4ringsinneh\u00e5ll \u00e4r mycket h\u00f6g och anv\u00e4nds f\u00f6r att ”kontrollera” f\u00f6dointaget. Han\/hon kompenserar n\u00e4stan alltid ett ”f\u00f6r stort” kaloriintag med att \u00f6ka m\u00e4ngden tr\u00e4ning. Ortorektiska individer har egna definitioner av vad som \u00e4r ”h\u00e4lsosamt”. Dessa definitioner kan \u00e4ndras s\u00e5 fort en ny diet eller livsstil omtalas. G\u00e4rna, som sagt, fr\u00e5n tidningar eller b\u00f6cker.Det blir oftast sv\u00e5rt f\u00f6r en ortorektisk individ att bibeh\u00e5lla ett normalt socialt liv eftersom de inte kan \u00e4ta samma mat som sina v\u00e4nner, m\u00e5ste tr\u00e4na ofta och ha kontroll \u00f6ver sin vardag.\u00a0Eftersom kosten \u00e4r s\u00e5 strikt kontrollerad och p\u00e5verkad av teorier av vad som \u00e4r nyttigt f\u00e5r oftast inte kroppen det den beh\u00f6ver. Till f\u00f6ljd av detta minskar vikt, ork och den allm\u00e4nna lusten. Oftast \u00e4r det dock sv\u00e5rt att identifiera ortorektiker p\u00e5 grund av att de ser h\u00e4lsosamma ut. Deras m\u00e5l \u00e4r som sagt inte att g\u00e5 ner i vikt och om de minskar f\u00f6r mycket brukar de f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka g\u00e5 upp till deras egna idealvikt.\u00a0Identifiering av en ortorektiker kan ske genom att man beaktar k\u00e4nslo- och beteendem\u00e4ssiga f\u00f6r\u00e4ndringar som inte skiljer sig n\u00e4mnv\u00e4rt fr\u00e5n \u00f6vriga \u00e4tst\u00f6rningar. Dock kan ortorektiker f\u00e5 fysiska symtom liknande \u00f6vertr\u00e4ning det vill s\u00e4ga bristf\u00e4llig koncetntrationsf\u00f6rm\u00e5ga, muskelv\u00e4rk med mera.”<\/p>\n
Jag f\u00e5r profisionell hj\u00e4lp och jag bes\u00f6ker l\u00e4kare regelbundet f\u00f6r att se att jag m\u00e5r bra. Jag vill avsluta det h\u00e4r l\u00e5nga inl\u00e4gget med att s\u00e4ga till alla os\u00e4kra individer d\u00e4r ute att du \u00e4r fin som du \u00e4r! Du beh\u00f6ver inte \u00e4ndra p\u00e5 ditt utseende eller s\u00e4tt att leva (s\u00e5vida du inte \u00e4r sjukligt \u00f6ver viktig och beh\u00f6ver g\u00e5 ner i vikt f\u00f6r att bli h\u00e4lsosam). Om du k\u00e4nner igen dig i min beskrivning s\u00e5 s\u00f6k hj\u00e4lp s\u00e5 fort du kan. Ni vill inte bli som mig, jag \u00f6nskar INGEN den sm\u00e4rtan som jag har g\u00e5tt igenom. Man tror att man ska bli lycklig av att g\u00e5 ner i vikt men det blir man inte. Jag tror inte att man kan bli helt n\u00f6jd och det borde inet finnas ett ord som kalls perfektion f\u00f6r perfektion existerar inte i den m\u00e4nsklig v\u00e4rlden. Det \u00e4r alltid n\u00e5got som man inte \u00e4r n\u00f6jd med, ett thigh gap g\u00f6r ingen lycklig. Det kan jag lova er! Jag har f\u00e5tt problem med b\u00e5de mina njurar nu och jag f\u00e5r ingen mens vilket kan leda till att man blir steril. S\u00e5 sn\u00e4lla ni, tro p\u00e5 er sj\u00e4lva och var starka. Ingen \u00e4r v\u00e4rd den sm\u00e4rtan som en \u00e4tst\u00f6rning \u00e4r. Jag f\u00f6rlorade n\u00e4stn alla mina v\u00e4nner fr\u00e5n grund skolan och nu p\u00e5 gymnasiet har jg haft det lite jobbigt d\u00e5 det har varit mycket snack bakom min rygg d\u00e5 jag inte lever p\u00e5 samma s\u00e4tt som de flesta 16 \u00e5ringar g\u00f6r. Satsa p\u00e5 att vara h\u00e4lsosamma och var tacksamma om ni \u00e4r det.\u00a0Du \u00e4r fin som du \u00e4r. Och l\u00e5t aldrig n\u00e5gon f\u00e5 dig att tro n\u00e5got annat.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Hello Ellen! Must ask if it is okay, did \/ you an eating disorder? Because you have written that at your instagram. \u00a0How long ago was that You dont need to answer! Hi! Yes I have a eating disorder and I have suffered with it since I was in seventh grade (I go year one … L\u00e4s mer<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4212,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3780","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3780","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/4212"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3780"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3780\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3780"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3780"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/fitspooration\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3780"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}