{"id":3,"date":"2011-06-19T23:28:00","date_gmt":"2011-06-19T22:28:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/glaskupan\/2011\/06\/19\/holes-in-my-soul\/"},"modified":"2011-06-19T23:28:00","modified_gmt":"2011-06-19T22:28:00","slug":"holes-in-my-soul","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/glaskupan\/2011\/06\/19\/holes-in-my-soul\/","title":{"rendered":"holes in my soul"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">det var s&aring; mycket som borde sagts d&aring;. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">s&aring;dant som f&ouml;rblev tystnad. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">&amp; l&auml;mnade stora h&aring;l. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">som bl&ouml;dande s&aring;r. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">d&auml;r tvivel kunde gro. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">&amp;<strong> tusen obesvarade fr&aring;gor eka. <\/strong><\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">genom alla tomma n&auml;tter. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">&amp; de d&auml;r dagarna jag f&ouml;rs&ouml;kte fylla. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">eller sova bort. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">&amp; galenskapen som de drev mig till. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">i hopp om att hitta en annan k&auml;nsla. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\"><strong>vilken som helst. <\/strong><\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">f&ouml;r att <strong>den <\/strong>skulle vara b&auml;ttre. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">det var min &ouml;vertygelse.<strong> min tro<\/strong>.&nbsp;<\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">&amp; s&aring; h&auml;r i efterhand kan jag vara tacksam. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">&ouml;ver allt den d&auml;r fruktansv&auml;rda perioden gav mig. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">d&auml;r vi vandrat genom bl&ouml;ta gator efter bl&ouml;ta n&auml;tter.&nbsp;<br \/>&amp; jublande str&auml;kt v&aring;r armar mot himlen.<br \/>f&ouml;r att s&aring; sm&aring;ningom landa&nbsp;v&auml;nkapliga h&ouml;gar i soffor. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">med skratten ringande som sm&aring; sm&aring; silverklockor i natten. <br \/>trots att hj&auml;rtat skrek. kved. och k&auml;mpade f&ouml;r varje slag. <br \/>fy fan vad ont det gjorde.<\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">men vi levde vidare som om vi var bekymmersl&ouml;sa. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">jag hade inget att f&ouml;rlora. <\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">s&aring;dant som g&ouml;r en <strong>modig. <\/strong><\/span><br \/><span style=\"font-family: courier new,courier;\">&amp; v&aring;rdsl&ouml;s. <\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&nbsp; &nbsp; det var s&aring; mycket som borde sagts d&aring;. s&aring;dant som f&ouml;rblev tystnad. &amp; l&auml;mnade stora h&aring;l. som bl&ouml;dande s&aring;r. d&auml;r tvivel kunde gro. &amp; tusen obesvarade fr&aring;gor eka. genom alla tomma n&auml;tter. &amp; de d&auml;r dagarna jag f&ouml;rs&ouml;kte fylla. eller sova bort. &amp; galenskapen som de drev mig till. i hopp om att &#8230; <a title=\"holes in my soul\" class=\"read-more\" href=\"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/glaskupan\/2011\/06\/19\/holes-in-my-soul\/\" aria-label=\"L\u00e4s mer om holes in my soul\">L\u00e4s mer<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1049,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-kanslorna"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/glaskupan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/glaskupan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/glaskupan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/glaskupan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1049"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/glaskupan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/glaskupan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/glaskupan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/glaskupan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/glaskupan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}