I think everyone in this world is waking up at this point in life….and I love hearing that all of us are starting to see ourselves in another perspective…there are 1000 books in the shop about peoples life as when my mom were younger you were not suppose to talk and express your feelings….The day I did she though I lost it:))) I might have had but I was a ticking bomb and still are…..just wait till the day I explode and Im saying that with a smile as this is just the beginning!
So what do you feel about Melinda? Could this be a story with humor and laughs as I always since a young girl laughed about my things but now lately I am becoming a boring woman that goes around and thinks Im not good for anything……well , we all know that each one of us are!
Have to work on the text and the story will have to be a little bit from my own life of course….:)) Oh boy, I wish John Cleese and I could do something together as I used to love his sense of humor as a child…….
Woke up at 5…..Baked for the kids. Drove Ethan to school and then went back to get
Alice that goes to school on the other side of town….
After that….I got back in time to a shower and pamper myself for the meeting
with the investors that is going to spend 30 bilions in the company that Im trying to
make….”I know this will work..” I say to myself as I put the lipstick on my lips…..
I get to the meeting and realized that I forgot the doctors appointment for my lungs.
So, that it is about 15 minutes left before the meeting, I take the car and
drives up the highway . Get´s to the doctor in time and comes 10 minutes late for the
meeting.,..excusing myself and says “I had my period ”and that is always a good excuse….
I nearly got him to sign the contract when I realized that …Im not good at this!
I cannot even do this!!! So I finally realized that my self esteem is getting lower and lower as I
sit there and according to all the shit in my life….. (That my brain is constantly reminding me off
and stuck in my brain so much that I can hardly believe it myself…)
Am I fucked up? Can I do anything right? The questions are there for me to be served on a tray
and hope that he will take them and eat them up……….)
He looks me in my eyes and I can feel myself sweating all over the table……
“Im done here sir” I hear myself saying…..Runs out the building and realized…I fucked it!
It´s a new day tomorrow and with some new self esteem!!!
