It’s 5.30 AM in the morning.. the sleep seems to keep itself away tonight again.
I really tried to close my eyes and fall asleep..but the horrific feeling is haunting me and there is nothing I can do to stop it.
It’s this feeling of your chest crushing your lungs and you can’t take a single breath without feeling the pain.
My soul is screaming and I constantly battle to not outburst in a panic attack who screams his name,
My love for him hurts, his words to me hurts. It hurts even more to know he replaced me for a person he says he just been talking to for 2 weeks.
The thought of him moving on scares the living crap out of me, it scares me that I gonna break down and bleed out this sorrow with my broken heart in my hands.. while he is replacing me like nothing, smiling and giving all his energy to a new woman.
Soon I’m gonna be a foggy name in his past, a forgotten love that will fade into a small memory.
He never loved me – never.