{"id":2686,"date":"2018-09-08T22:47:45","date_gmt":"2018-09-08T20:47:45","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/mardromsmorsan\/?p=2686"},"modified":"2018-09-08T22:47:45","modified_gmt":"2018-09-08T20:47:45","slug":"hurt","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/mardromsmorsan\/2018\/09\/08\/hurt\/","title":{"rendered":"Hurt"},"content":{"rendered":"

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face<\/em>
\nThank you for all you’ve done<\/em>
\nForgive all your mistakes<\/em><\/p>\n

There’s nothing I wouldn’t do<\/em>
\nTo hear your voice again.<\/em>
\nSometimes I wanna call you but I know you won’t be there<\/em><\/p>\n

Jag saknar dig Jesse. Det \u00e4r fortfarande sv\u00e5rt att f\u00f6rst\u00e5 att du \u00e4r borta.
\nMan ska inte d\u00f6 n\u00e4r man \u00e4r 24 \u00e5r. Absolut inte n\u00e4r man v\u00e4ntar sitt f\u00f6rsta barn, snart ska gifta sig och precis k\u00f6pt hus.
\nJag k\u00e4nde p\u00e5 mig att n\u00e5got var fel ig\u00e5r morse. Det var d\u00e5 du l\u00e4mnade jorden. Vart finns du nu?
\nJag tror jag vet.\u00a0 Men ingen kan veta s\u00e4kert.<\/p>\n

Vi hade inte tr\u00e4ffats p\u00e5 flera \u00e5r, du och jag. Det kom alltid n\u00e5got emellan.
\nF\u00f6rst tr\u00e4ffade jag Jim. Sedan fick jag ansvaret f\u00f6r John. Charlie f\u00f6ddes. Skolan. Jobb.
\nAlltid var det n\u00e5gonting. \u00c5ren bara rann f\u00f6rbi, snabbt. Ofta t\u00e4nkte jag tillbaka.
\nSm\u00e5land r\u00e4ddade mitt liv.
\nUtan Sm\u00e5land och v\u00e4nnerna d\u00e4r hade jag nog inte funnits h\u00e4r idag.
\nNi var dem enda v\u00e4nnerna jag hade under en l\u00e5ng period.
\nJag \u00e5ngrar s\u00e5 att jag inte tog mig tid att \u00e5ka till Sm\u00e5land.
\nNu \u00e4r det f\u00f6rsent. Din och min tid tillsammans har runnit ut. \u00c4lskade Jesse.<\/p>\n

Snart far jag tillbaka till Sm\u00e5land. 9 \u00e5r sedan sist. Minns fortfarande hur jag kramade om dig p\u00e5 perrongen innan t\u00e5get gick.
\nNu n\u00e4r t\u00e5get \u00e5terigen rullar in p\u00e5 perrongen s\u00e5 blir det f\u00f6r att ta farv\u00e4l av dig f\u00f6r alltid, Jesse.
\nVarf\u00f6r? Varf\u00f6r sl\u00e4cktes ditt liv innan du f\u00e5tt leva ordentligt? Varf\u00f6r sl\u00e4cktes ditt of\u00f6dda barns innan det ens fick ta sitt f\u00f6rsta andetag?
\nPojke, trodde du. Det trodde jag med.<\/p>\n

Jag ser dig framf\u00f6r mig. Du dansar med din lilla bebis, lyfter den lilla h\u00f6gt upp i det bl\u00e5.
\nNi b\u00e5da skrattar. Virvlar runt, runt.
\nJag hoppas att ni \u00e4r lyckliga, tills den dagen vi alla ses igen.<\/p>\n

Livet \u00e4r or\u00e4ttvist.
\nDu \u00e4r s\u00e5 saknad.<\/p>\n

Mitt hj\u00e4rta g\u00e5r s\u00f6nder f\u00f6r din blivande man.
\nF\u00f6r din familj. F\u00f6r oss, dina v\u00e4nner.<\/p>\n

Vila i frid \u00e4lskade v\u00e4n.<\/p>\n

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Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face Thank you for all you’ve done Forgive all your mistakes There’s nothing I wouldn’t do To hear your voice again. Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won’t be there Jag saknar dig Jesse. Det \u00e4r fortfarande sv\u00e5rt att f\u00f6rst\u00e5 att du \u00e4r … L\u00e4s mer<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":9008,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2686","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-okategoriserad"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/mardromsmorsan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2686","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/mardromsmorsan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/mardromsmorsan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/mardromsmorsan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/9008"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/mardromsmorsan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2686"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/mardromsmorsan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2686\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/mardromsmorsan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2686"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/mardromsmorsan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2686"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogg.improveme.se\/mardromsmorsan\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2686"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}