I don’t quite have words to describe what’s going on right now but an extreme version of ”frazzled” somewhat sums it up. I have over the years realized that the more things I have to figure out, or take care of, or deal with, the more I shut down. I cannot for the life of me have lots of things going on. It’s just bad news bears for everyone involved.
I would very much just like to pretend that I live in this pretend fairy world without needing to figure out money situations or where to live, or what to do with myself. I just want to BE. That’s it. I just want to be.
So in between wondering where to move, where to go, what to do, how to do it, and all of the other anxiety inducing life questions I am juggling at the moment, I’m walking around my house from room to room like that’s going to magically make answers appear. I have almost decided that I just want to peace out and go BE somewhere nice and warm, without pressures or neighbors, maybe get a few puppies and spend the rest of my days focusing on my creative adventures. Almost. I’m not 100% sure I’m ready to leave civilization and all you people behind quite yet. But almost.
*Old photo by Andrew Bramasco.