I swear, sometimes I have to step back and wonder if things are a fucking joke or if life just works in the most messed up of ways. I woke up feeling like death, with 102 fever and all.. Just in time for our trip to Sweden tomorrow:(
Also someone sent me the best email this morning. A made up email address mind you, ofcourse. This seemingly religious person oh so kindly implied that (yes I know this is ridiculous) If I simply believed, and repented for my sins and accepted Jesus Christ into my life then I would not be this sick. ”If I looked at the personal choices I made more carefully, life could be much more joyful” were the exact words.
Now excuse me but What the hell kind of God would punish someone for not believing in him? I certainly don’t want to believe in this asshole guy if those are his tactics. It would probably be better for his reputation if he didn’t exist anyway. And what kind of balls does this person think he has by telling me that it’s practically my fault I am diagnosed with a chronic pain disorder. It’s seriously laughable and I shouldn’t even have wasted my energy on this bullshit but I am stuck in bed with nothing better to do so, thanks person who just gave me something to rage about. If anything I feel bad for you, so don’t you worry about me and my personal choices over here. Besides my broken body I am generally happier than ever. So there :)
Please take what I write with a grain of salt. But it’s exactly this kind of ”i’m better than you attitude” that makes me sad. Are you being a good christian by making me feel like shit? Is that your contribution to a functioning society? Shame and threaten people until they join your religious party over there? Cool. Personally though, I want nothing to do with that. But hey, you guys can believe whatever you want, and so can I. Hugs from bed:)
I loved reading your thoughts on religion, but am so sorry to hear that you have a chronic pain disorder. I developed mine in 1996; I was running triathlons and was so healthy, then one morning I woke up and could barely move. The symptoms have waxed and waned through the years, and it’s been so frustrating! This year I have a new doctor (Obamacare!), new medicine, physical therapy and lots of vitamin D and I am feeling a bit better. I will try to run a half-marathon in September just to try to feel alive again… Don’t know if I will succeed, but 18 years is so long to sit still. I send you hugs from the US, and hope one day we will both feel amazing again!