When you grow up you tend to try to live and fulfill your dreams and we all try to seek adventures or even try to create them out of boredom with our daily monotonic lives just to experience something new different and exiting other than what we have but then I realized something really important when I grew up and understood life a bit, that life is literally what we make it, it´s all inside our minds and it´s a state of mind if you are heavenly satisfied with a candle and a hut in the middle of desert then that’s your state of mind and some other people want a silver spoon with ultra luxurious meal in some rich Riviera or something then that’s their state of mind and who the fuck are we to be the judge, life could be heaven if we wanted and it could be hell if we wanted that too, so it´s really up to us to decide what kind of life we want and let´s not try to blame it on something else or blame it on an outside force, person or element, it all starts with us and it all ends with us and when we all die it´s us who will get buried or cremated all alone cause you are the dead one not the people who will attend your funeral.
Roberto is my name the security guard told me with a firm smile that showed his determination and his self-confidence, Roberto was a tall guy 193cm and lean and he was always standing so erect and straight that you would wonder if he is bending himself backwards, firm chest that showed from all the pushups he was doing and a lean muscled body that showed a sportsmanship at its highest level and discipline, he had dark brown hair with brown eyes and a thin long nose and a petit lips that somehow fitted his tough determined jaw lines, we became good buddies and we used to mess around with each other through practical pranks and jokes that he enjoyed and I even more, was it my longing for my brother or was it his spirit somehow got into Roberto through a reincarnation or was it both or was I just still sad and wanted an idol to be in my life to look up to, a male model that would be there for me when I need to talk to someone, I really don´t know what it was but I liked him a lot and he did the same and one day we sat down I had a canceled class and we talked and talked until we both fell silent after a while, and then he said from nowhere (he would have been as old you now ) I told him who, my deceased brother he died when he was 12 years old in a car accident(hit and run) and I saw his eyes getting wet and glistening in the sun light that shone through the window, I saw him struggling to hold back his tears and I asked him how old are you Roberto he answered am almost thirty why you asking I told him you have also the same age as my killed brother if he was still alive and I told him the whole story at the end we looked at each other, he stood up and I did just the same and we hugged each other both crying about the sorrow the we both felt and the coincidence that connected us both with vice versa stories that ran parallel with each other’s lives.
Was that fate, was that karma, was that a coincidence, was it god or was that the universe controlling us and doing its work behind closed veils that we don´t see or feel, I until this day really don’t know what it was, but it´s there, and there it is proving it´s power to us and I still can´t figure it out, or maybe it was (the secret) the law of gravity and attraction that he searched for someone that looked and reminded him of his brother and me just the same and we attracted each other poles and finally we met, as I said I don’t know what it was but it felt good, no, it felt perfect for both of us and we carved our friendship even deeper and more real to us than just a hangout friends.
Life is weird, no matter how much I or you or we write about life we will not achieve the meaning, craziness, sickness, beauty, hardness, kindness or anything else that we feel for that matters I would say life is indisputable and its beauty unassailable and we should live it breath it experience it to the last drop of heart and soul that we have in us and not only just be a guests here , I think we all should make our mark wherever we live and prove to ourselves that we were here we conquered we ruled and that life will not break us down nor it will bring us down and we at the end will become victorious and that my fellow readers and friends……..that………….is……….THE ULTIMATE ADVUNTURE which we seek and search for but it´s right there in front our eyes but we are so blind to it!!!!!