I love the eyes, yes am an eyes lover from the beginning to the end. When I see a girl or when I fall in love with a girl the first thing I would have loved about her that would be the eyes, the eyes and then the rest would follow, am not a boobs guy or an ass guy or hair or anything else for that matters. The most important thing to me is the eyes and the rest is just secondary.
Here is another poem I wrote to someone I love but with no affect what so ever, which it really hurted me so bad. Because I really think that person doesn’t even realize the affection and the love I mean to her!!??
The name of the poem is “what if”
My feelings are as deep as the ocean,
When my lips touches yours in motion.
Look deep into my eyes and you will see,
I say and do love you as many molecules are there in the sea.
My heart is hurting my soul is aching and my body is burning,
My love and passion for you got my whole being churning.
You stab my heart deeply when you say for you I got no trust,
When you fully know in love trust is must.
I know as a fact and most definitely that you have no idea of how much I love you,
Look up to the sky and count the stars and every one of them is a life time love for you.
Sometimes I hate and dislike you for not giving any love to me back,
But deep in my heart I know you are on the right track.
I know you would be gone soon and maybe forget about us,
But baby it´s love what we have not a lust.
You can never imagine what torture and what tremendous torment,
It´s like am being swallowed in a volcano alive and burned in it´s torrent.
Sometimes I feel that no matter what I say or write,
That you don’t feel the power of my words or their might.
(her name)wake up look around you and you will see that am your guy and am your lover,
Am honest and am opening myself to you like a book with no flashy cover.
I really want you to feel what´s been said and what´s inside,
Read every sentence twice and see there is nothing to hide.
In this story I feel am in a deadly unending mysterious maze,
Like am in Neverland and no way out of this freaking daze.
(her name)you should at least trust me and love me and let me be yours forever,
I would never let you down and even if I ever I would try to make it never.
(her name)I just want to ask you this,
And consider it good before you miss.
Just imagine if tomorrow never comes and I would die,
Would you know how much I really mean or would you think I lie.
If tomorrow never come without you telling me how you feel,
Would that be for you a considerable good deal? I L U
The irony is that girl or lady didn’t get what I meant with the poem and instead we went our separate ways!!
We established a good base after we entered Afghanistan, and we conquered Kabul with ease and stayed there for 4 months before we headed to the southern east part of Afghanistan.
We moved to Kandahar and all the cities around the southern east part of Afghanistan´s border with Pakistan.
We did many missions included stealth and speed to have the surprise element to it, they were no match for us. Many of the operations were cooperative with other Special Forces troops from around the world.
I used to have a tradition or ritual before every mission I did; it was that I look at myself in the mirror, look straight into my eyes, and say goodbye to myself, and then smile and say “today is a good day to die” I took that line from the movie FLATLINERS when the actor Kiefer Sutherland use to say it in the movie!!!
Many people use to ask me a stupid question (I consider it stupid); have you killed anybody in your army service? The answer I would say; DDDUUUHHHHH
Among the funny stuff that happened in Afghanistan, we used always to do something in our spare time, like making stupid bets or having some pranks here and there. One of the funny bets that I discovered by myself and challenged the whole army base with no one who could accomplish it was; you have to eat 5 MARS chocolate bars in 5 minutes!!???? No one could do it in the whole army base which contained over 380 soldiers.
Just because of that bet I earned at least 2000 euro´s out of it. Hahahahahaha
Our toilets were outside, you know the type; cubic iron boxes like the ones you see in parks or beside construction sites, but ours were made of steel. One day our commander went inside and I knew it was number two he was going to do, so I told my guys to surround the cube with big ass stones in our hands and I told them to wait a couple of minutes then at my command we threw the stones simultaneously, it caused a loud bang more than you ever expected even more than I myself anticipated it would be!!!!! We saw a door opening; my commander comes out with his trousers and under wears to his heals, his helmet crooked on his head and his dick and balls dangling down, and a menace look on his eyes with his assault rifle ready and aimed forward, and stepping forward with baby steps cause of his trousers and saying out loud asking; WHO WAS IT WHO WAS IT WHO WAS IT
You see it´s that stuff that reminds me that humor is everywhere, wherever we turn our heads wherever we look there is humor and we should never stop laughing or never stop trying to make ourselves amused by the smallest thing that shoots around us without us even noticing it.
In Afghanistan I got offered by my commanders to take the task and study to be staff sergeant, I accepted the offer and went on studying in my free time I had between the missions, which lasted sometimes from days to weeks.
The difference between a commando soldier and the normal infantry soldier I would say it in the easiest way is; we have less missions but our missions are action guaranteed and more dangerous, while the normal soldier have many missions but theirs can be false calls, less dangerous and mostly free of action ”“that doesn’t mean they don’t endanger their lives people””, and we are more versatile and more independent than the normal soldiers.
I loved and still love the Afghani people, they are warm hearted, nice people and generous in the most modest way you can ever imagine, after what I saw and felt and heard what the Taliban had done to them; I was really more than happy and satisfied to shoot those fuckers Taliban, with delight and such a rush of satisfaction that I freed the world and the Afghani people from their evil deeds and their horrific crimes against humanity.