The fall he took was about at least 7m (21ft) I peeked outside the hole in the wall to check on him after I heard the thud he caused when landed on whatever it was, he just lay there moaning and twitching in pain but still alive, the soldiers around him looking at him then at me and wondering what had happened up there? I was kind of relieved to see him alive instead of the thought that I killed the guy which was definitely not my intention, my intention was to teach him a valuable and painful lesson, which I did, but now the question is (did he learned from it or not?).
By the time I was down he lost consciousness, the guys asked what happened, I told them nothing important really, he tried to kick somebody´s ass and he got his ass kicked instead, and winked to them. They all started laughing and some of them got what I meant and what I did and some of them had puzzled looks on their faces.
My studies for the sergeant degree went on and on, until I had my exam back in the Netherlands, which I passed it without flinch and now am officially a staff sergeant, that makes me an official non official officer, I know it sound complicated and contradict each other, but then again ask me and then I will explain what I mean by it.
My relationship with Meta was ups and downs really, I busted her ass cheating on me 2 times, and me with my stupid blind love stayed with her anyway, which she in process abused it and used it to the last drop, I bought my own place and we lived together, we had super fun but also super disastrous times. At the end I discovered that she cheated on me 7 fucking times, 3 of them which I busted her personally and 4 fucking times she admitted her mistakes to me, and the rest who knows what the devil hide inside ?
The most enduring and hideous cheat on me was when I was home in the weekend, I asked her if she wanted to go out, she said that she couldn´t cause her dad was sick, I said ok sweety in that case am not going out either cause it wouldn’t feel right to me too.
I sat home and begun to wonder and ponder, and had that itching feeling , that lurching and churning feeling that turns your stomach inside out and makes you think that something bad is about to happen or something is wrong going on.
So I called her home and her dad picked up the phone, I asked him how he were and he said never better, I knew directly that Meta was out somewhere partying, so I hung up and went out in search for my beloved girlfriend to see where is she hanging out and with whom, I went to all the places we used to go but my search went out in vain, at last the last place that I could think about, I said to myself this the last place am going to look in before I call it a night.
I went inside and saw her, she was with a guy and they were kissing passionately, I stepped to the guy and pushed him away, and the look she had on her face was of terror and fear, the guy was bigger than me and much more muscled, and said what the fuck is your problem? I told him listen this is my girlfriend and I took his glass of beer and spilled out on the floor and told him if you don’t back off now I will take this glass and shove it up your front head literally so BACK OFF!!!!!
I guess my eyes were sparking fire and my mouth was spitting venom, because he looked at me and backed away just as he was told, I grabbed my girlfriend´s wrist really roughly, and dragged her fucking ass out of the discotheque, I never felt in my life like hitting a woman but at that time I felt like fucking her up at the best way I can do, I took her out and had my hand in a fist ready to deliver the hardest blow ever I could deliver to someone I hate and despise from the bottom of my heart.
I thought the better of it and told her, you know what you are not worth it and you are not worth the anger I have to you, you are the cheapest lowest disloyal bitch I ever met in my life and its over between us cause I fucking damn well know that I deserve much better than you, goodbye Meta!!!
And so I went back to the army with broken heart, but as they say (what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger) and it fucking did, I became stronger when it comes to love, and also stronger as a person and character.
What happened next in Afghanistan marked a burned place in heart which will never cease to exist or vanish no matter what I do or try, the next chapter will be a dark one, and you all have been warned.