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Sport have been always in top spot in my interests list, I loved it, worshiped it and I cherished it and knew what the benefits of it, there is a Bruce Lee saying which says (your body is a gift from gods to you and we should take that gift and make it in the best shape that we can accomplish).<\/p>\n
In my first high school years in Netherlands or Italy I was in the teams of rugby and baseball of the high school and I was the youngest guy in the teams because they were all filled with guys from the last year in high school<\/p>\n
I was still the annoying kid in all classes but still the smartest fuck which was a disappointment to the teachers cause they wanted a guy who was smart and well-behaved. (yeah good luck with that)<\/p>\n
The teachers found me so annoying they decided that I should go to a therapy and get myself tested, which I did both and the results came that I have ADHD,now let me introduce you to ADHD to give an idea and understanding what it actually is:<\/p>\n
ADHD is a neurobehavioral disorder which concentrates itself on the attention and hyperactivity in the brain, meaning that my brain doesn’t work like yours and do something less (attention) and something extra(energy) too.<\/p>\n
Ad means attention deficit which leads to that the person would have difficulties to concentrate.<\/p>\n
Hd means hyperactive disorder which means that the person would have excessive energy or lesser energy than the normal person.<\/p>\n
ADHD is divided in 4 categories:<\/p>\n
Well I have the 4th<\/sup> kind which means I am really hyperactive and can never get tired but I can fucking concentrate too hahahahahaha.<\/p>\n My life in Italy meant a lot to me and it was a good experience for 2 years there from 14 to 16, then I came back to Netherlands armed with a new language and life experience. As I mentioned earlier that I was some kind of a popular guy in school who made a name to myself pretty quickly.<\/p>\n Our group in school was the toughest of the toughest and no one dared to challenge us or fight us plus we were there for those who needed help and getting bullied.<\/p>\n They would come to us and we would handle it and punish the bully, one day there was a guy called Frans he was a German guy and was bullied by someone so he came to me and asked for help, I went to his rescue and he thanked me and told me that I should drop by his house so we can play some games together as a way of thanking me, I said yeah sure Frans why not.<\/p>\n We played some Sega games like mortal combat 1 and 2 and he had Sonic and shinobi too which was a fun night to hang out with him, Frans was a thin skinny guy with blue eyes about my length with golden blond hair and a really really white fair skin but he had Vitiligo disease which marked a big wine red spot covering half of his face and that what’s made him a big target for bullying in school´.<\/p>\n We hanged out many times after that night and one night he dropped a bomb on me that shook me up a bit and wasn´t really expecting it at that time.<\/p>\n He looked at me really serious which made chuckle cause I have never seen him that serious, he said Hassan I like you a lot and I really love you, well same here bro I like you a lot Frans you not that bad either.<\/p>\n Frans: no Hassan what I mean is that I really love you<\/p>\n Me: you mean you love me like a brother or a friend or you mean I love you like lovers(and I said it with really wondering tone)<\/p>\n F: i love you like lovers<\/p>\n M: I was so shocked so disgusted so angry and I shouted at him you asshole so all that time I was hanging out with you, you were fantasizing about me weren´t you?<\/p>\n F: no no no Hassan please don´t tell anybody I beg you I will do anything for you to keep this as a secret.<\/p>\n M: well I guess this lucrative secret is going to cost you some money my friend and let me get this straight so you have a wine spot on your face plus you are a homo oh my god dude that’s sick(a note to you all who read this,at that time I had a different mentality)<\/p>\n F: just name your price and I will do it for you.<\/p>\n M: how about 300 guilders a month(around 150 euros)<\/p>\n F:done deal but please I beg you don´t tell anybody otherwise I would commit suicide.<\/p>\n M:don´t threat me man it´s you who got the messy situation here not me.<\/p>\n And so it went for months he paid me on time, by working and taking three newspapers distribution jobs in the neighborhood just to come by. And I took the money with pleasure not realizing actually how fucking mean I was at that time. Until one day my mouth slipped and I told my guys accidently but I told them right a way to keep it down cause he really is sensitive to that subject so keep it between us guys and do not spread it in the school, they promised to do so.<\/p>\n The next day I went to school to see the biggest ever graffiti on the wall that says Frans is homo, I thought oh shiiiitttttttttt, and waited to see Frans´s reaction when he sees this, well he came looked at the graffiti and turned and we never saw him again after.<\/p>\n Until one day I got a knock on my door, I opened the door to see an adult man standing and asked if I am Hassan,<\/p>\n M: yes can i help you sir<\/p>\n S: well am the father of Frans and wanted to tell you that he took his life yesterday by hanging himself.<\/p>\n M: what how I I I really don´t know what to say sir (I was really speechless)<\/p>\n S: well the reason I came here cause Frans told us about you !!!???<\/p>\n M: (I was scared that my back froze)okay what did he say exactly?<\/p>\n S: well he told us how you helped him and defended him against bullies and how you loved him the way he was!!!!<\/p>\n M: yeah sure I did,but still I don’t know why you are here sir?<\/p>\n S:well his funeral is tomorrow and I wondered if there is a better friend to Frans that would be you ,so Can you do an eulogy on his funeral?<\/p>\n M: yeah sure why not.<\/p>\n So I went to the funeral and did my eulogy and putted on a mask that didn´t belong to me nor it did represent who I was as a person at that time and I figured out that his parents didn´t know their son was gay so I let it be and chose not to tell them.<\/p>\n Now if you ask me what i feel about the whole story I would say I would have handled it differently, and more with open mind but what´s done is done and we all cannot turn back time, it was a sad story but it made me realize too that life is short and we have control over it too. 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